When I was 12 y/o, I was the most anxious person in this world. I can remember how I counted the days for xmas....
Seems that wasn't that bad (specially for a 12 y/o kid).
Monsta: If you really want the 19" wheels be patient and wait. Just a few more weeks for something you will enjoy for a long time. If it helps... some of us are still waiting for allocations.